Being a creative and a perfectionist really kicks my ass sometimes. I’ve been working on a new thing for the site for a couple of weeks now and I set a deadline to have it done. I tend to procrastinate, so giving myself deadlines has helped a lot! Anyways, day after day, I’m kind of working towards it but not really getting anywhere, and it’s been the most frustrating thing ever! I’ve pitched literal tantrums over knowing what I want but the execution just not working.
I tend to find inspiration in the weirdest things, so once I see it in my head, I try to look for something that helps me bring it all together. Usually, I find nothing, and it’s incredibly disheartening. The thought of hiring someone to execute my vision has crossed my mind multiple times. But their work usually doesn’t match up to what I envision, leaving me feeling like I just need to do it myself. I went to bed the other night in tears, just so creatively blocked and overwhelmed. Then, I woke up this morning and executed the thing within minutes! MINUTES! Something that had me in a frenzy for days was done in minutes. And I’m obsessed! But this is why I don’t like doing projects for other people. It’s so overwhelming sometimes. I mean, once I get it, it’s great, but the journey to get there is usually so damn annoying. I just can’t!
This time, I realized I really just needed to sit with myself for a second and give myself some grace. I’m just so hard on myself when it comes to these things!
I’m really asking for myself and for others who might be in the same boat: to those who are also perfectionist and creatives, how do you get through the frustration and blockage? What helps?
xoxo
zen whispers