We reached 1,000 subscribers in May. (Ahhhh, congratulations to us! Yes, I know I’m screaming about it!) I was super excited and thought it was a good time to share the news with my closest friends. I’ve literally told no one about this journey. Being perceived in this way is just different for me; in fact, being perceived at all makes me cringe honestly.
I’ve never been consistent or comfortable on social media. I have accounts, but I’m not really active. I might post twice a year and then… nothing. It’s not because I don’t want to, but I guess I’m just scared of being open to the world, especially online. So, starting a blog was definitely out of my comfort zone but still such a perfect fit for me. It’s been my very own safe place! I’m just here sharing & existing without the extra pressure of being judged.
But honestly, I can’t touch my dreams being this way, and I know this! So, confidence and coming out of my comfort zone have been a priority for me this year, and I think I’m doing great. But then I shared the blog with friends and went right back into my shell! It was weird because they know me, of course, but now they REALLY KNOW ME, and ya they were extremely supportive but I guess it scared me a little and It’s almost like I started to judge myself! I just started over thinking and telling myself it wasn’t perfect.. this is indeed the life of a Virgo!
So, that’s where I’ve been the past two months. What was I doing in the meantime? Procrastinating! Putting things off! Questioning what I’m even doing to begin with! But really continuing to heal the relationship I have with myself & also getting the clarity I needed to continue coming out of my comfort zone. It can only get better, and it’s okay to be seen. No one’s really looking, and if they are, who gives a fuck?
oh & I have some exciting things coming very soon. So stay tuned!