This year was different. I’m writing this and I’m so pleased at how much of myself I discovered this year. I started off packing up my life and moving to a completely different state almost 2000 miles away. This is something I knew I would one day be doing but when the day actually came, I don’t know, I guess I was just nervous… starting over, just me and my kid, to go what felt like across the world?
The initial months in my new city were an emotional whirlwind. Picture me, in a foreign place, with nothing but a mattress and a TV, getting up every day finding different things to do & just exploring the city alone. I felt like I stepped into the shoes of Carrie Bradshaw!
As exciting as it was starting this new chapter, the reality of loneliness soon set in. amplifying the challenges of starting fresh without the comfort of familiar faces. my daughter was back at home with her dad for the first few months. so, no friends, no job, just me and my thoughts.
I eventually got a job as a server at a black-owned restaurant. throughout this, I dealt with my own insecurities. at first, it was hard making new connections. I’m not a huge talker, so having a job that requires showing my personality to strangers was a challenge, and I never realized I had such an attitude. but I emerged with newfound confidence & I met so many different people while there. Also, vibes felt like being back home so I enjoyed that. I only stayed for a few months.
Along the way, I discovered passions I never knew I had. I mean who would’ve thought I’d be blogging about my life & for someone who is naturally introverted, sharing my life in this way has been interesting but also has come so natural for me. when I think about it some of my favorite shows are Sex in the City & Gossip Girl so maybe it’s not so far off. Inspired much? Obviously
Well, as the year unfolded I found solace in the rhythm of my routine & found connections within my area. I started things like pilates at a women’s only gym. & trust there’s nothing like being able to work out comfortably surrounded by only women! My baby started school and she loves it here. Like this new place has started to feel like home! Though the road was fraught with uncertainty and tears, it led me to a renewed sense of purpose and a newfound appreciation for the journey.
As I sit here in thought, I’ve come to realize the resilience and strength I possess, and it fills me with excitement for the endless possibilities that lie ahead in 2024. So here’s to 2023.. a year of stepping stones, of growth, and of finding my footing. And as for 2024? Well, that’s when the real dream begins.
Xo,
ZenWhispers