t’s 8 a.m. I’m sitting outside listening to the birds chirp, enjoying the kisses from the wind and the sun hitting perfectly.
Did I mention how happy I am for fall weather?
Anyways, I’m thinking about insecurity. How insecure I once was.
I’ve come to a place where I’m breathing out in the open again.
No longer sitting & hiding from the world.
While I’m here, I realize that being insecure was just a waste. Pointless really?
Why would I be insecure about the things I love.. about me?
You experience a pit in your chest & call it doubt.
You convince yourself it’s real when it’s so clearly not.
You accept really little when you know it doesn’t feel good.
You hide.
Your talents. Your beauty. Your light.
You create a world around you that enhances each one of those things.
until one day you kinda just wake up & realize it’s just you.
You’ve given names & identities to things like doubt & insecurity.
It needed a host, and you gave it an open door, so it pushed further in each time.
And the day you finally realized it, it felt like life was falling apart.
Every. single. piece.
Like the worst heartbreak.
You realize you’ve built a codependent relationship with your insecurities.
and just like any other relationship, it’s not easy to leave.
But you don’t have to dwell on why.
You just have to move.
You have to fight for yourself, even when it’s scary.. especially when it’s scary.
Because this is the fight that changes your life.
Then you wake up & notice how different you are.
So different, you don’t even recognize yourself.
You’re getting to know a different you.
You begin to see the world with a different set of eyes.
You gently start to create a different world around you.
You choose to see the best side,
because who said the other was even an option?
Once you choose it, it must play out.
Choose love. Choose yes. Choose joy.
Choose the feeling that gives you good comfort!
they’ll all choose you back.
xoxo, happy monday ♡